went out for lunch with BFFs yesterday. (: it was fab. honestly. it feels so good to see them after such a long while. none of the awkwardness. but since when has there been any? lin is being too paranoid again. (: yes ngaim. (:
the butteflies in my stomach are still flying in there, but talking with them killed half of the butterflies. as they so aptly said, i must kill the rest on my own. it’s good knowing you have friends like them whom you can count on when the road ahead seems dreary and dark, when all future seems bleak, and it seems like no one can understand how you feel. so thank you guys. (: it really helped.
and the chats made me think so much. and allowed me to better understand everything. i feel more clear-headed now. (: and yes i’ll go practice on “chickenbone” first. (: hahah yay our code name. lol. it’s so funny to think back. the way S got the name “chickenbone” is really so frigging funny. and omg dragons. and worms. hahahaha. totally made my day.
i think we should go out more often like these. (: tooth fairy or something. (: hahaha and yes, for ngaim, for you alone, i’ll watch avatar again. (: hahahah but it really is nice. hahaha.
and i thought of KY again. i miss her. and like what she says, no matter where we are, as long as we have each other in our hearts, the friendship will not be diminished by the distance. (:
and i am going to work hard. to prove them wrong. to show i’m worthy. (: it sucks to know people are talking behind your back about how unworthy you are and saying you got where you are today, no because of who you are, but because who your dad is. it hurts. and i really wonder if no one has seen my efforts to prove myself for the last 4 years. but what are gossips to me as long as i can prove them to be nothing?
like what ngaim said, jc is the last 2 years you get to wear school uniform and mug hard coz the results you get determines your future. and we’re just students. so studies should just be the main focus. and the rest? i’ll try my best and if i don’t get it, so be it. but i’ll make sure i give it my best. so then, at least i can say “hey at least i tried right.”
ok. (: brighter thoughts. sarah tan’s birthday today! sarayoo’s birthday tomorrow. and desiree’s birthday on orientation day! happy birthday to you three. i love you guys to bits. (: one’s my bestfriend, one’s my girlfriend and one’s my encourager. (: hope you guys have a great seventeenth birthday. and mind you sarah, i really want to eat your birthday present. it’s calling out to me. and sars, i hope you get a good laugh out of the B______ i bought you. (: oh and something else too. but it’s really hot!!! and des, hahahah i’m so sorry i don’t know what to get for you. but i’m already making the roses so don’t fret! and i’ll die if it’s 99. but i promise i’ll give you 99 by the end of this year. (: hahaha love you (guys).